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rika kawai. ([personal profile] contrarily) wrote2021-03-09 09:20 pm

yogen inbox.

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after she gets her throat slashed idk

[personal profile] rhymed 2021-05-18 03:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The silence of the night shrouds the school; the ominous moans of the wooden floors echoes through the halls, and while normally Hajun can sleep through most nights with some comfortability he just can't tonight. It's a growing annoyance -- the lack of a bed, the lack of personal space, the fact that he's stuck within a school that he shouldn't even be in.

It pushes all of his objectives back, and while he can normally sleep with that bitterness dormant there's the idea that time back home is continuing as he's here. Further stretching out the day until he can witness the downfall of his family, of the people who left him behind, and when he remembers that he bites the inside of his cheek so hard that it draws blood.

Hajun leaves his classroom with that rust in his mouth, tasting is in every corner even after he spits it into the sink. He draws a hand over his lips, the pads of his fingers brushing against tender flesh before he catches a small glimpse of his face against the mirror. Hating it, he leaves with his mood even worse, unable to sleep and taking to wandering the halls as an excuse to stretch his legs. And, just when he thought he's found a shred of normalcy to tear him away from the constant feeling of failure, he's greeted with Rika's body slumped near the mouth of the clocktower. Looking worse for wear, appearing knocked out, and while he hates that he can feel his expression switch from mild annoyance to concern he absolutely despises the weight in his chest as his heart falls.

He doesn't know what happens first: her name leaving the tip of his tongue or his fingers coming to grab her. Either way, he's here, kneeling down and examining her body -- the neck wound is noticed first, and he quickly covers it with his hand. ]
Rika -- [ Why is it whispered -- Hajun only realizes now that the ball in his throat strains his words, making him sound pained. He hates that too. Hates that suddenly he's in front of someone whom he doesn't want to see harmed in this damn place. ] Rika, say something.

[ Just so he knows whether to scream or not. ]
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[personal profile] rhymed 2021-05-20 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ That mutter is enough to have him exhale a breath he's been holding the entire time. Fingers caked with old blood; still warm, however, with the pressure at least holding what little continues to seep out to stop. Hajun props her head up and examines her face, his lips slowly curling into a smile as a wave of relief washes through his body. ]

Apologize later. [ He states, his voice deprived of that faux innocence he puts on.

His arms encircle around her, picking up Rika in a princess carry. The pool of blood that she had been lying in drenches the sleeve of his shirt, ignoring the heavy smell of rust, grunting as he gets back on both feet. He looks around to find the nearest being 1-a and enters, pushing the door open with his foot before he walks through. He sets her down against the wall, pushing several desks together before he places her on top.

Removing his jacket, he forms it into a pillow and places it below her head, rolling up his sleeves. ]
You just had to get in trouble while the infirmary is closed... Fine. [ He searches the inside of the desk, finding a box cutter and grimacing before he cuts a piece of fabric off from the bottom of his shirt (rip his designer brand...). Tearing up a piece to put onto the wound, pressing his palm down. ]

Rika, do you hear me? I'm not going to forgive you if you die on me.
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[personal profile] rhymed 2021-05-23 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Unaware of the situation, of the dilemma that Rika had to face, Hajun is left only to wonder how she received such a wound. There's a small sliver of him that feels angry; boiling over, surfacing in his features in the form of furrowed brows.

He feels weak because this is all he can do; feels hopeless because all he can do is watch. ]
It would be. [ And yet his tone remains harsh, as if offended that his time is wasted aiding her. Another way of distracting him from the feeling that he may potentially lose someone -- even if, realistically, Rika should have died a long time ago... there's still a chance if he doesn't tend to her now. At least until the infirmary opens and he can get her proper attention from the nurse.

Hajun pulls a chair beside her, sitting down as he continues to grumble. ]


And the only memory I would have of you is being an absolute witch. A spoiled rotten girl who thinks the world owes her something, too much trouble.

[ He bites his bottom lip, body moving before he realizes his hand is slipping over to take hers. Slowly, sliding underneath and feeling the weight of her palm before his fingers curl. Feeling how cold she is, heart dropping. ] So you can't die... if you did, I wouldn't forgive you.
Edited 2021-05-23 22:07 (UTC)
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[personal profile] rhymed 2021-05-27 12:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ It comes easier this way. Distant -- needing that separation to keep himself from ever being betrayed again. His heart no longer aches with longing when he thinks of his family; it only ever reminds him of who he can't be anymore. Open, sensitive, and loving. Because the moment he's any of those things he'll be disappointed with the reality that he'll always be alone. ]

Don't call me that. Not unless if you intend to treat me as one.

[ So his tone remains leveled and bitter, hiding the fact that his concern is so evident in his face that he may as well be crying. Hajun wishes for the hour to be over with already, for the sake of rushing her to the infimary and not be here -- holding her hand, keeping her talking, and having to reveal little secrets. ]

... I haven't. [ He speaks honestly, even if he doesn't want to. ] Word would spread and I would undoubtedly lose everything I was building up... so if I have to fight, I'll do it in the dark.
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[personal profile] rhymed 2021-05-31 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Are you kidding? [ Hajun doesn't mean to, but he laughs; soft and boyish, exhaling as the corners of his mouth lift into a smile. ] You're capable, you just don't want to -- I'm curious, actually, if that's because you like being insulted?

[ The question extends and he pauses, briefly. Considers what to say and how to say it; he wonders how ugly he can be with his response, how honest. ]

There are people I want to hurt. [ -- Inhale, exhale. ] There are people that I want to kill -- and I will. And I'll ensure that they die a painful, miserable death. [ His fingers twitch, wanting to pull away and no longer feel another person as he slowly disarms himself. Allowing Rika a glimpse into another half -- his true half -- that Hajun keeps hidden. ] For the people I care for, too, I might... because I couldn't stand losing anyone else.
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[personal profile] rhymed 2021-06-05 09:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Calm down. [ He says, thumb brushing over her knuckles. ] You'll strain your throat. The last thing I want is for you to also complain about losing your voice... even though I think most here would prefer not to hear whatever you have to say for a few days.

[ All teasing and insults aside, Hajun deflects. Defending the slow unravel that shows his heart, ugly and full of scars that refuse to heal; he can't, not until he's ensured that the family that drowned him with conditional love receive the brunt force of all his anguish. The years of loneliness, the fact that he was brought into this world only to be abandoned twice -- all the love he's ever received had to be earned. And not an ounce of it was actually genuine.

Perhaps that's why he's readily prepared to destroy it all. Even at the cost of his own body and mind; continuously experiencing his traumas, furthering rendering his body to rotten metal. There's a part of him that doesn't care for the end of himself, so long as he accomplishes his goal... if his body were to be destroyed, his mind lost to his pain, he'd at least die knowing he'd won.

He won. Unloved and unwanted. An unneeded child leaving his mark. ]


You're still a child. [ The morning sun begins to peer behind them through the windows. ] If you were able to instinctively decide that you can kill a person, you'd just lead yourself somewhere no one can reach you. [ Hajun glances behind him, eyes squinting as he's met with the bright light before he rises back up on his feet. ] Plus, it wouldn't be very cute of you.

[ That said, Hajun bends down slightly again to princess carry her. Taking a glance over his jacket that's now drenched in blood; he steadies his expression, ensures that he doesn't look disappointed before he begins his walk towards the nurses office. ]
Edited 2021-06-05 21:52 (UTC)